Gratitude List / 2 Minutes of Appreciation: Synchronicity and Getting Your Prayers Answered2/4/2013 Gratitude List / 2 minutes of appreciation: Getting your prayers answered/synchronicity - In this ambitious city, in this time of the world wide web, it's so easy to fill up your time with all kinds of things both good and not so fun, which gives the illusion that you are accomplishing a lot and making a difference in the world. But I have learned that frenetic activity is not always a sign of growth or progress and sometimes it can lead to burnout because it's work done for the wrong reasons, or you're on the path you think you should want, rather than what you truly want. I am guilty of being the hamster on the wheel, huffing and puffing and sweating away while staying immobile. Only since I have become more quiet and have started paying attention to what brings me a feeling of being alive at the end or what I feel called to go to intuitively(without knowing why) do I understand the magic that is all around us always course correcting us and putting us back on the path to what we really want, if I have the eyes to see it and ears to hear it. This evening was an example of that--seeing some posting in a random FB post, and feeling like, I need to go to that even though I don't know anything about it--finishing my work on time and just going without thinking about it, has reminded me of a request I made just a few days ago, about my next steps and then boom. There it was. It seems you pretty much always get what you ask for, and if you are not getting what you want, then you have to either let it go, ask for something else, or look into the way that you are asking. And trust. Trust that there is a larger order to things, that you are an important and indelible part of the whole and you are never forgotten.
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I remember the first time the concept of the internet was introduced to me. I went to a school with two magnet programs. One for math and science and one for writing and communication arts(the one I was in). The science and magnet kids were introduced to it first, and apparently one of them figured out how to hack into some credit card company's data base and stole all kinds of money and ran away from home. He was found, arrested, and then put on some kind of list that will follow him and pop up on his record for the rest of his life....I don't know if this is the truth or an urban myth that was spread at our school, but the internet was this vast, amorphous thing "out there" that was supposed to connect us, but it was kind of weird and sci-fi. We all got our netscape account and the go-to search engine at the time was Lycos. When I went to college it was still this new fangled thing that was still not too commonplace---it was novel to be able to talk to my friend who was studying abroad in England or Ohio, but I was also still writing them letters(Imagine!). Now it governs almost every aspect of our lives from paying bills to, communicating, to organizing events, running businesses, entertaining ourselves, finding our mates, making friends with people we may never meet in the flesh, and learning about anything and everything you are curious about. There will be a day in the future where I will be telling my kids about the days when we didn't have internet and they will look at me in wonder as if I was living in a cave with my knuckles dragging on the ground. I am so thankful for this thing that connects us and allows me to see my niece's face in real time even though she is hours away. It's so easy to judge and be appalled at what I see around me, but when I stop and look at the judgement it's really the fear underlying it of now knowing if I can live that way or want to for that matter. I am incredibly grateful for the life that I was given. I have my trials and tribulations, but right now, the thing that occupies my mind is that I would like my internet to come back on in my house. Talk about first world problems. I wish to take all that I have been given and work towards the goodness for as many as I can. Grateful for everything and nothing in particular. Grateful for my parents, my soul, my friends, my ex-friends, ex-boyfriends, people who know me deeply and the honest reaction of strangers. Grateful to be sitting in a coffee shop with a warm tea by my side in one of the greatest, most interesting and chaotic cities in the world. Grateful to know the love, connection, frustration, and inspiration that is in my life presently, and also to know that in this time of frigid temperatures, there is a warm little piece of this city on lease to me--a little personal sanctuary that is filled with things I have collected that bring me comfort, and that I can call my own. I am thankful for the ability to take care of myself and meet my own needs but still have connections that feed my soul. I feel blessed to know that I am living in a time and place where I have the time, resources and the plethora of possibilities open to me at any time if I were to decide to do it. I am thankful for the things that scare me. It keeps me humble and striving for a bigger, stronger, more courageous version of myself. It's good also to be reminded in those moments when it feels like its too big and you just keep chipping away at it until you can finally see the core of it all and it's not so big anymore. I am also so grateful for the people past and present who show up at the perfect moment to give perspective and hold the loving space when I can't hold it for myself. I guess this post is not for the squeamish or mens who didn't grow up with female friends or sisters. I don't get back aches or cramps or anything really crazy physical, but it's a time of the month when I feel my emotions more in depth than the depth to which I usually feel them. On a daily basis, I feel mostly happy, but during these days, I feel the range of emotions from the depths of despair and sadness, as well as so much joy that my heart feels overcome and I have no words. I am always on the verge of tears, and when I cry, it feels sweet, like a much needed relief from all the pent up emotion. I feel very tender in my heart on these days, and it feels beautiful. I look forward during these times to get a little more quiet and in tune with my inner goings on. Not only because I will most likely tear up at hearing a baby hic-upping (like one is behind me right now here in starbux) but because it feels like that's what I need to do. It is one of the many sacred rhythms that govern our lives, our heartbeats, our respiration, our sleeping/waking cycles, and this rhythm of the moon, that governs our creative energies and primal continuation of our species. It SHOULD be honored. When something you start out doing to help someone else turns into an unexpected opportunity to be helpful and growthful for both of us. And it's a win-win. I love win-win situations. That is what I am striving these days to create. This was a totally unexpected turn of events but one that brings me a lot of relief. So thankful. Now I just need to put my ducks in a row and show up and do my best. I've gotten a lot more of this in the last two days since the internet has been out and I don't have the option of staying up late working or "sometimes" checking social media......sleep is the great equalizer, tamer of beasts and feelings of disconnection and discouragement. I feel like when you sleep enough you feel like you have energy to conquer your blocks and go after your goals. If more people slept enough our whole world would be a better place. But it's so hard to do what is good for you sometimes. Thank goodness for no internet. I also am waking up to a funny outer space sounding alarm on my phone, and I'm not used to it so I always jump up wanting to say, "beam me up Scotty!" it's good to start the day off with a laugh....even if it is at yourself. =) My Brain Gym Twin Marjie Citron. I met Marjie, soon after I moved to New York. We both learned about, studied, and became brain gym teachers around the same time. We were doing things on the same timeline without knowing each other. When we met it was like, "I think about brain gym this way." "Really? so do I. I wrote this on my flier" "wow. that's almost exactly what I wrote on mine" and so on and so forth. We have shared many "balances" or brain balancing sessions since we met, and in recent years we have increased the frequency with which we balance each other's brains to almost once a week. I am so grateful to my time with her not only because she is an awesome person, but because we can totally be ourselves with each other, and simultaneously learn and grow. Our balances together grow us, not only professionally, but personally, spiritually, emotionally, and so much more. I have had so much bodywork and energy work and brain work over the last 10 years and I have become very selective about who I entrust my being with. I can say whole heartedly that I trust my brain with her, and know that she has my best interest and growth in mind, and I do for her. It has been such a blessing.....to be able to share this continual growth process with her and to watch both of us continue to unfold and blossom. Oh, and by the way, she is funny! The best thing about our sessions is that even when we are working through things that are very tough, and laughter seems like the farthest thing from what is possible, we can find the humor in it and laugh laugh laugh while we are working. She is one of the most genuine, good-hearted, and integrated people I know. She also works with kids and it makes me happy to know that there are lucky kids (and VERY lucky teachers) out there who have her to balance their brains and love them. I am so lucky to have her in my life. Day 6 - Gratitude List / 2 Minutes of Appreciation - The Cycle of Life and Life in General1/12/2013 The cycle of life and life in general. Thank you god, universe, or whatever big entity out there that makes all of this work. I went to a funeral today and watched people show their appreciation for a man whose life was filled with love and was lived to the fullest. I didn't know him well, I know his daughter, but I was inspired, many tears were shed, and I emerge feeling an even deeper desire to drink fully from the fountain. Life is short. Ask many questions. Do what you love.
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