Osho -Slowing down
This quote came into my awareness today.
Transformation often brings to mind hard work and sacrifice.
Much like the butterfly struggling its way out of the chrysalis, the struggle is necessary to emerge changed for the better. What is often not emphasized, is the internal work that must be done to prepare for the struggle.
This evening, one of the circle participants relayed to me information about the transformation of a caterpillar to a butterfly that I didn't know. She said that the caterpillar creates the chrysalis, and once inside, everything basically disintegrates and it loses all features that once distinguished it as a caterpillar, and then from that, the butterfly is slowly formed. This piqued my interest, and when I further read about the process this evening, I also found out that the caterpillar develops inside the egg, breaks out of it, and then eats the egg shell.
The perfect logic of natural processes really amaze me. Our nurturing experiences(being protected while developing in the egg) become the food on which we have the strength to begin our lives. Then at some point in our lives, we go through a metamorphosis, where we shed everything that we knew to be ourselves, whether it be a first love, loss of parents/loved ones, new job, whatever the cause, we change and transform.
I feel myself at this juncture. Somewhere between being a caterpillar and butterfly. My efforts have mainly been out out out. But there is a part of me that resists being seen and feels scared about it. But it is necessary and I feel a shift coming where I am going to be more out and about and be more visible. But in order to meet that challenge I am feeling the need to go into a cocoon to regroup. To understand where the fear comes from and give it the attention that it needs. Not to ignore it, override it, think my way out of it and push or force myself to do something that is not comfortable.
Believe it or not, it's actually more difficult to slow down than speed up and do more. But it is time to try something different.